MAYBE A NEW BEGINNING 

well it’s been a while since i’ve blogged…maybe a few days but only because so much was going on and i didnt know how to even write about everything that was going on…

first thing…

the issue i had the manager with i think is over…she’s been talking to me like normal…maybe this is just her personality… another side of her personality that i wasnt aware of…

but here is the more pressing matter…

I may have written about an old friend… female friend that i have had for most of my life… and we had stopped talking back in 2015… well turns out her father died… and although her and i had a huge fallout i wanted to be there for her…i dont care who a person is… to lose a parent must be soooo terrible and difficult to deal with so i wanted to put the BS aside and still be there for her despite the verbal assault she gave me that ended our friendship… she even resorted to making me look bad on social media… throwing indirects and posting things about me on social media… by the way i’ve never done that to her…

so anyway… i wrote to her mother to have her call me and she called me but i was sleeping at that time… her calling me showed me that she was open so we talked the next day letting her know that i’m there for her even if she didnt want me to. she sent me the information for the viewing or what most people call the wake.

i went … she cried and i was able to comfort her…. the wake was yesterday… i was there for about 3 hours… and i left… said my goodbyes to everyone i knew as well as her father in the coffin… but my goodbye to him was in prayer…

so today i received a message from her… it read…

” just wanted to tell you all our bs aside i appreciate you being there today. more than i can ever express. thank you. ”

one of her arguments with me was because she said i was selfish and i made everything about me… however i dont see it that way … but whatever lol….i wrote back.

“I wouldnt want to be any other place… i really mean that… thank you for allowing me to be there for you. i love you. I have you in my prayers and thoughts. i’ll be checking on you throughout the week.”

i really hope that she dont think i made that message more about me than it is about her… i meant i wouldnt want to be any other place but by her side.. but i hope she dont twist it…she had a tendancy to twist my words… i actually think she has borderline because i forgot how talking to her can kind of feel like walking on egg shells…

hubby said to take it one step at a time with her… so that’s what i’m going to do.. i’m not going to call her every day… and im’ going to maintain a safe distance… i know she’s going to bring up out old issues and if she does i have no idea what i’m going to do…

i’m trying to be a good friend.