drama day

you know i really try to be a good friend to all… i try to be a good person overall… sometimes i dont know if i’m doing a good job at it or i’m failing on some level especially after making my sister mad at me last night… so anyway she’s still very much mad at me..

today i had to go to my mothers’ adult day care where she was having some kind of prom day… i had a good time.. i danced… i ate… i even messed up the electric slide… lol i havent done that dance in so long… i was turning the wrong way and i was bumping into people… i was a mess but it was so much fun…mind you it was not even 12pm when all of the dancing and eating was happening… =) i felt that it was important to my mother that i be there.. and i want to be there for her as much as i can…

 

so yeah, my sister was there and i can tell that she was still upset with me.. she was giving me one word answers and nothing else… i asked her what was wrong… she said “i’m tired” but i know my sister well enough to know that she’s pissed… it’s ok … hopefully she will get over it soon…

when my mother stepped away to the rest room and it was just us both… i felt the animosity, and uncomfortably sat there looking through my phone…checking out my facebook and instagram…

afterward, i went to see a coworker who got verbally and physically assaulted by her man… she was crying and said she couldnt stop crying.. a part of me sitting there at that party wanted to go and be at her side… but i couldnt do that… i KNEW that staying with my mother was more important… at least in my mind it was…

so i went to see her when i was done with the party and i felt terrible for her… and i’m glad that she trusted and confided in me enough to share the darks of her life with me… i always had a problem seeing that i’m a person who could be trusted… i guess in some cases i’m not very trust worthy and in others i am.. so i didnt stay withh er too long… only maybe a few mins to make sure she was ok… but honestly… i dont think i have anyone that would do that for me… who knows… but then again when i’m feeling down or depressed… i dont really voice that stuff in a forum where my friends would have access to seeing it…such as facebook or instagram…

kind of a double edge… i dont know…. what do you think?