bipolar bipolar 2 borderline personality disorder

Last session

so today was my last session with my therapist and i have to say the session was just so surreal to me… it’s like i was there but not there at the same time… he summed up my progress and i exposed to him about my sexual feelings about him and how i have been attracted to him since the beginning. i told him that i think about him when i’m having sex with my husband and how i fantasize about him when i’m alone.. .whenever i’m in a sexual situation he comes to mind… he hit me with ” do i feel that it may have gotten in the way of our work?” and i explained that my sexual attraction to him and my work with him are very separate… i sought out help and i made progress because it’s what i wanted and it’s what i needed to do… i didn’t make progress cause I’m trying to impress him or because i’m attracted to him… i did it with his help… and honestly i’m hoping i wasn’t too aggressive lol… sometimes i can be…

we also discussed boundary issues… which is so funny because i may have crossed the boundary by telling him how i felt about him but i felt like it was something i needed to get off my chest… i told him it wasn’t obsessive or anything but damn.. i’m gonna miss his sexy face and everything else…

i told him about my absent mindedness that sometimes things would happen and i dont remember them happening… but it really wasnt a main topic of discussion but i did mention it…

he asked me about my sleeping and i told him that i like to take sleeping pills to sleep…because i at least sleep the entire night… i told him it doesnt really bother me or i feel like it’s not causing a problem… he asked if my absent mindedness had something to possibly do with my not sleeping well and i told him no.. sometimes i have my moments but who knows…

we talked about me wanting to connect with others… and he’s just wary that i reach out to people who really dont have my best interest at heart.. or in my words… just wanna have sex with me…

so i officially know that i’ve been seeing him since august of last year… so pretty much almost a year…

he asked me if i feel that i’ve accomplished anything? or anything that i feel that i should work on.. but i dont think i answered him but in hindsight i def have to work on boundaries…. he strongly expresses that i have done the work.. and i know and i understand that… and that i was able to step back and see things that may have not been very beneficial …

but yeah that was pretty much my last session.. i mean we discussed more things… i just need time to reflect on the session so that i can remember what else was discussed…

 

 

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