anxiety at 100

today at work i was just filled anxiety… stomach closed… needing to take deep breaths…feeling very irritable… and today i finally told my husband how i feel and i told him that i didnt know why but i couldnt find myself to let him know that i believe he is the cause…i dont want to start an argument or make him worry or anything like that…but i just feel fucked up in the head… i hate it…

i mean i’ve dropped 7 lbs since last week… i havent been able to eat… no appetite… i eat cause i have to but not cause i’m hungry and i have been eating very little…like i said, no appetite….

today i actually wanted to go and put myself into the hospital or something just to take away these feelings that i have… i really dont know what to do… i’m just so paranoid and anxious and i dont know what else…