Maybe hypomania starting 

So I’m sitting here on my lunch break and just got a off the phone with a friend because her cat just died… I feel so bad she’s so sad… 

I’m not eating lunch today, not cause I’m not hungry but because I left my debit card at home… sucks but oh well…

My coworker asked me if I wanted something I said no thank you… 

Well I’ve been thinking about doing something that I may regret later so I’m kinda torn between what I want in the moment and what I really need to do… so hopefully I’ll make the right decision… I really just want some action… I’m just as Bruce Springsteen says in the song “dancing in the dark” “im just so tired and bored with myself”

I do the same thing every day in and out… I don’t know I just need something like an adventure… something new… 

my therapist noticed I was figeting a lot yesterday… I thought it was nerves but I think maybe it’s an early sign… I’ve been taking a lot of deep breaths which is something that happens to me…. I don’t know … guess we shall see… I’ve also had a hard time sleeping at night as well…

have any of you ever felt like that?