Looking for something to get into


so i’m home now from work and i had plans to just cook and stay home but now that my husband is out having a drink i feel like using this time to go out and have some fun of my own… but i want to go out and meet new people and socialize…thats how i’m feeling right now… i want to get into something just really dont know.. i mean i can go to my cousins house but i dont know if i want to.. i just know that i want to do something…

i mean what a change, honestly i knew hypomania was going to be coming to me soon but i really didnt expect this soon because i went through depression last week… i mean i am having problems sleeping and i just feel like i want to move.. i have to keep track as to how many days i’ve been feeling like this… from what i’ve heard and read if i’m feeling like this for 4 days or more than i’m really on the verge of a hypomanic episode… that would explain my boldness for asking for my hug from my therapist a few sessions earlier than i had planned…

i really have to control myself because i do become hypersexual and times like this i go on the lookout to cheat on hubby so i’m really trying to keep myself in check when it comes to that… i’ve already been thinking about it but i have not acted out on any of these urges… so far so good i’m trying to be a “good girl.”

i’m just feeling excited and i love the feeling.. i’m going to enjoy it… i just need to keep calm enough to fall asleep which has been a challenge for me these past few days… so lets see… i’ll be blogging about my experiences as i always do…

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8 comments

  1. hi hon its good you havent acted on the urges, your doing good to keep yourself in check, proud of you for that. xo

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