Distraction


After i finished my last blog.. i dolled myself up cause even though i’m sad, i dont like to look it… i put on some makeup and got dressed really cute.. yeah just to walk my dog…so we were out for about an hour. It was a nice time to think about stuff and see what i can do to distract me from this sadness if only for a moment. we walked and we came upon this playground… i havent been to a playground in years.. i mean why would i..? i’m 37 with no children…. so anyway i decided to go in there with my dog and swing on the swings… i havent done that in so long and i only did it for like 3 mins but it was a great distraction…until i lost interest and just felt like being sad again.

so i figured what can i do now… just decided to take a bunch of selfies and post them…maybe peoples comments would make me feel better in some way shape or form… got a ton of likes… really not many comments but that’s ok…

now my husband is still out with the guys after this morning he told me he wasnt going anywhere… i know we didnt have any planned tonight but just still… why say something and then dont mean it… but it’s whatever.. i’m not even mad.. i dont even care… hubby just messaged me “Im a Faithful guy I don’t cheat I might still a little out with the guys but I don’t disrespect you. I only thing i do wrong is try to leave I tell you” well with all of those typos i can tell he’s feeling a little nice… i just wrote back “its fine, dont worry about it…”

I dont know why he always thinks i think he’s cheating or he feels the need to tell me he’s not cheating… this is like the 2nd time he’s done that.. is it a guilty conscience or he’s just trying to reassure me…? i dont know… but at this point i really dont care… well at this moment i really dont care.. i think i’m just gonna go to sleep… gotta work in the morning anyway and do the same shit over again.. AAEAAQAAAAAAAAZvAAAAJGNmMWFjMmFlLWY1YTctNDI5My04NmNjLWVhYjc0OGYxYThmNw

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7 comments

  1. Pucky knows how bad it sucks to try to enjoy things that were mentally stimulating in the past, that now are just fleeting attempts to rekindle long, lost childhood joys. :(((

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  2. i’m glad you were able to distract and hope that tomorrows better. ❤ xo

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