so i woke up from a nap… still feeling like shit.. but i have to go back to sleep soon for work in the morning… but i’m sitting here watching family guy and typing… tears just flowing down i look a mess and guess what… hubby is just on the other side of the room and he didnt notice that i’ve been crying for damn near 10 mins because he’s stuck on his damn video game.
he mentioned to me that i looked angry… but i told him no… but i am.. i just feel like he wouldnt understand or maybe he would but i have have to explain why i’m angry and i dont want to get into it or make him worry… i sent my therapist an email tonight expressing things that i really didnt express to him… i have issues expressing negative emotions like anger and frustration.. i really dont know why but i just bottle everything up and top it off with a smile…
much like hypomania.. i feel waves and tingles all over my body…but not waves of happiness or excitement…more like waves of sadness…getting more intense with every wave…
i just feel like i need my therapist and i feel like such a damn baby for even saying it… i wanted to continue this journey with him… he’s helped me so much and i dont know i’m just stuck…
my eyes are red…swollen…teary… hubby is here but i just feel so alone… 
tears wiped away but still very sad… then tomorrow just gonna go about showing a smile to the world when all i wanna do is stay home…
😦 Hugs. Maybe a good nights sleep will help some? Just looking positive. Are you done seeing the therapist already or a few more visits? Did you give him the card?
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Yeah I gave him the card… he had it on his desk which was really nice to see… not done visiting therapist… gonna see someone else after him… hopefully sleep will work but I slept a lot today… still sleepy probably going to sleep in another hour or so
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I took two long naps today too. Hopefully I wont be up all night. And good you gave him the card 🙂
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Yeah… was happy to see it… hopefully you can get some good sleep 😴 thanks so much for all of your support
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Xoxo
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i get this im exactly the same I cant open up when im angry or down don’t want to explain to anyone. maby you feel like this due to the change coming up. hot bath tea and lots of rest if you can easier said than done I know. maby you need to have a good cry sometimes it helps . sending hugs
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Thanks so much sis… yes just woke up and still sad.. hardest thing is I must go to work today:(
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oh hunni it gona take time but when your ready you will get through it. make sure you keep blogging to get it off your chest.x
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Definitely blogging does help me to put things into perspective
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Especially comments from people like u… thank u
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