Transitioning therapists

So my therapist wanted to transition me into the changing of therapists… he suggested that the new therapist sit in on our sessions and at first i was all gun ho about it but then i just changed my mind.. i figured i’ll just start with the therapist fresh from scratch…  it’s a female and i really didnt want a female therapist but he thinks she would be a good fit for me… so we shall see… i mean i can always change if i’m not feeling her… or i can just stop going like i did before, but that’s not the wisest choice…

I sent my therapist an email about me not wanting to do the transition.. that i just wanted to meet with her when it was my time… he called me “brave” for that because transitions suck and they arent easy…but honestly… i just want to rip this whole situation off like a band aide…. quick… i really dont want to have to deal with it honestly..sometimes i think and wish i never started therapy in the first place if someone i trust with all of my deepest secrets would go away just like others close to me… and i knew this would happen… but it just sucks…

makes me wonder like… do i even want to open up to the new therapist? do i even want to retell my story all over again… do i even want to share as much as i shared with him?

i dont know…

what would you do?