Heartbroken,but I knew 

So yeah I went into therapy discussing my split mindset and he says I may have forseen something the moment he said that my heart broke… I mean I knew one day he would move on and help others but I’m just like damn…. so soon 😦 he recommended another lady therapist and my readers know I don’t open too well to women… my therapist objects to that so we shall see….

I’m just so sad I mean I knew he’d move on but damn… I know i said that before… I’m thinking now where do I start… he has notes about me that he will pass to the next therapist which is very helpful… 

I noticed I wasn’t giving too much eye contact… kept looking down at my jeans fidgety…. I have to emotionally prepare myself for his move… he seemed really happy about it and I am happy for him…. just not happy that I’d miss him and his jokes, great advice and comforting smile 

He warned me that I may be going through some emotional stuff and he’s right about that…

I just hate goodbyes and the fact that I will NEVER see him again 😦 

Just sucks … I feel so heartbroken 

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  1. ohhh, ok. I got you now. that really sucks. One reason i stopped going to therapists is the last one tried to commit me. lol i may have needed it at that time but didnt like that she did it behind my back.
    And i hate having to retell my story to every one. its like reliving the horrors each time. its gotten too painful to keep saying it over and over

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    1. exactly.. but he said he will update the other therapist on my case… so we shall see… i hope she’s nice and that i’m comfortable enough with her to speak the way i speak to my therapist now..

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      1. I’m nervous as hell about it! She’s still trying to work out a recommendation so that’s making me even more nervous, but I appreciate that she’s taking the time to put some thought into it so I get a good match. I really don’t savor the idea of having to retell my story over again, but I do know that therapy is a major part of keeping my illness in check so I will put in the effort required to get to know a new therapist.

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      2. I feel exactly the same way … I will give this new lady a chance… I know I need therapy due to how low my lows get…. but I’ll miss my current therapist deeply… glad to know I’m not alone on this transition…

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      3. I look forward to read about it if you write about it… I know I definitely will…I just have a feeling it won’t really hit me till my final session ya know… that’s when the reality will hit me… who knows

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      4. I haven’t written about it yet since I still don’t have a recommendation for a replacement. As I settle in with a new therapist, I’m sure I’ll have lots to say. I agree with you though on it not really hitting me yet. I think I’ll start to feel it more once I’ve had my final session.

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