Conflicted… help

Most of my readers know that I have a great relationship with my therapist… he is smart and has helped me a lot…. but I’ve been feeling anxiety about going back… he mentioned that I have traits of borderline and the thought of going back to therapy has all of a sudden given me anxiety….like I don’t want to go back… nothing to do with the way he counsels me… I mean I think rationally he’s great but I can’t seem to get the feeling of anxiety to go away… … like I don’t want to see him or anyone…I don’t know where this feeling came from but I know it started when I sent him an email telling him that I feel safe enough with him to tell him anything… as soon as I sent it I wished I could unsend it… now I don’t want to go back….

It’s a feeling like I want to stay far away from him…

Never had this feeling before and I don’t even want to tell him about it…. thoughts of me not going back for my next appointment linger in my mind… or going and just telling him … not to book another appointment and I’ll call him when and if I want to go back… I hope these feelings subside….