Suicidal Thoughts

Never Give Up, handwritten on a sticky noteSo I’ve never really confessed this to anyone… maybe not even my therapist..i’m not sure… but the thought of suicide is a thought in my mind every day… The thoughts don’t make me sad unless i’m in a depressive state… I could be shopping or reading a book and then a passing thought of offing myself will come… It doesn’t scare me… it just kinda lingers there. I’ve never attempted.

So I confessed this to my husband yesterday on our way home from dinner and he gave me (what I perceived as) a judgmental look… I don’t know if it was a look that meant “you’re stupid” or maybe a look of him being scared…I really don’t know but it just seemed to me judgmental…

Has this happened to anyone?

I have to see my therapist next week so i’ll bring it up and see what he thinks about that…