DO NOT CONTROL ME

don_t_control_me__by_tudalia-d8kizljThis is definitely an issue that I’ve been dealing with for a very long time. I don’t like when people tell me what to do.. it really does get under my skin. Sometimes it’s not really telling me what to do but just asking me questions like what do I do with my own money. I hate being asked what have I done with my money… first of all i’m an adult and I can do what I want. It just makes me feel like such a child! I have no idea if it’s a bipolar symptom or a borderline symptom.

It’s when people (more so my sister) tells me how to live my life when her life is in shambles.  Well, not in shambles but she has her fair share of life issues as well… I have a job, a steady home and marriage… I’ve been living in my apartment since 2002. I have my cat and my dog. So why do people feel the need to control me or tell me what do to? I just hate it.

My older sister still doesn’t respect me as an adult. She is very condescending and treats me like a child…even yells at me when she’s mad. I’m 37 years old and I don’t understand why i’m still being treated like this. Kinda makes me feel like a teenager or a child. I know sometimes I don’t make the best choices but it’s not like i’m totally unable to make the right choices… I mean isn’t that everyone…?

She told my mother that I was an alcoholic…mind you ( I only drink socially) I don’t go out much… My sister doesn’t drink at all… she also told my mother that I was a “pill popper” because I was taking the Seroquel that was prescribed to me by the psychiatrist. I was NOT abusing it, I was taking it as prescribed, once before bed.

I just wanted to vent…